From kissing Madonna at the 2003 MTV Video Music Awards to rehab stints and alleged drug use, the last twenty years of Britney Spears’ life have unfolded in a very concerning manner.

The former Pop Princess was placed under an involuntary conservatorship in 2008. That same year, she lost custody of her two sons, Jayden and Season Federline. Since then, the downward spiral has only gotten worse, with yet another divorce, more legal battles, and bizarre viral videos.  On Monday, the 41-year-old began trending online after she uploaded a video of herself dancing half-nude while holding two large kitchen knives. In the wake of the video post, many of Britney’s fans are hoping that she gets the proper help and support that she needs to get her life back on track.