Ashanti has opened up about the attempts she made to reconcile with the late Irv Gotti, in addition to how she is processing the former Murder Inc. music mogul’s untimely death.

The singer sat down with Angie Martinez in the latest episode of her IRL podcast and discussed at length how she has been compartmentalizing the unexpected passing Gotti. As Ashanti reflected on their relationship, both professionally and personally, her words were filled with an immense sense of emotional gratitude. When asked how she dealt with the news, Ashanti admitted, “It was a lot to process. It was a lot of different feelings and emotions.”

Ashanti added that the sadness she felt upon hearing the news left her wishing things had turned out differently between them. Despite their well-documented conflicts over the years, Ashanti expressed that she had always wanted the best for him. Ashanti also reflected on the history they made together and the lasting impact of their work. In doing so, she emphasized the importance of her son with Nelly understanding the magnitude of the success she accomplished alongside Gotti.

She also shared her disappointment that they had not reconciled in recent years, despite her efforts.

While revealing she has also connected with Gotti’s loved one’s and other close associates, such as Ja Rule, since his death, she also addressed the public scrutiny and drama surrounding their relationship. Even though things were rocky between them for several years, Ashanti maintained that she always tried to handle things with grace. During their time together at Murder Inc., Ashanti and Irv Gotti were responsible for some of the biggest hits of the early 2000s. With chart-topping singles like “Foolish” and “Mesmerize” Ashanti cemented herself as an R&B powerhouse. Their collaborations led to multi-platinum success and several Grammy nominations.