Miley Cyrus’ younger sister Noah is opening up about her Xanax addiction in a recent interview with Rolling Stone. 

Noah addresses her struggles with addiction on her debut album The Hardest Part, which is due out on Sept. 16. She explained that she wanted to be closer to her boyfriend the first time she took Xanax at 18. Many are speculating whether Noah is speaking about Lil Xan, who she was dating around the time she’s speaking about. Noah stated in the interview:

“My boyfriend at the time, when I was 18, was the first person that gave me a Xanax, and it became a way for us to bond. I think I wanted to fit in with him. I wanted to be what he wanted and what he thought was cool and what I thought everybody was doing. Once I felt that it was possible to silence things out for a second and numb your pain, it was over. I was sitting alone, and I was scared, and I realized that all the people that I love and all the people that I need, I was the one pushing them away.” 

Noah also opened up about her new single, “Mr. Percocet,” which she says is about her her “personal experience with the confusion and insecurities that arise in a relationship when substance abuse is involved.”